Family

Why do extended families have to be so difficult? I am going to be perfectly honest and say I am ashamed of the way I treated my sister-in-law while we on vacation in Belize. I had had a bit too much to drink on the day before we were to come home and I guess she had pushed my last button. Jan is a very unhappy angry woman and takes about 20 oxy-codine a day and drinks on top of that. That does not excuse the way I acted...it was just wrong...the things I said. My Honey and I were having a disagreement and she stuck her nose in because she thought she heard something I did not say. When I tried to explain it to her she slammed the bedroom door in my face. Needless to say, I went off on her. I apologized to her that night and sent her an apology via e-mail when we got home. I did not hear a word from her until late Saturday night. When I got up on Sunday, Honey sat me down and said that Jan had sent me an e-mail and that it was mean, nasty, and viale. He asked me to not read it and to just delete it. I did. It still hurts that someone would write mean and nasty things to me. And yes, I am curious as to what she said but I promised so I will not read it. I will tell you that I did read the e-mail that my Honey sent her. It brought tears to my eyes. This man, I love with all my heart, totally told her that she has not changed and that her tongue is still as sharp as it always as been. He told her to leave us alone. See...he has not had a relationship with Jan for the past 15-20 years because of her horrible mouth and temper (that and she stole jewelry from his then wife). She was back in his life because I extended the olive branch and invited her to his 60th birthday. Anyway, I feel badly and I am truly sorry for calling her a f***ing Bitch but I don't think it warrants the way she has continued to treat me. Oh well...what is that saying, "You can pick your friends but you cannot pick your family". Oh so true. I am blessed to have the family I do have (and oh believe me, we have had our ups and downs) and even more blessed to have the friends I have.

Thank you Nic for talking me through a lot of this last night. You are the only one who I shared the e-mail with and you will be the only one who gets to see it. Sorry about that sweetie. Please please don't share it with anyone. I still cannot believe I sent it without reading it. Wow, what determination I have...haha. I will forward Honey's response so you can see what he said. He loves me!!

I just needed to get that off my shoulders. I know I am not perfect, but I try :)