Buying A New Bed

I hate the process of buying a new bed. It is almost as bad as buying a new car...well no...worse.



How do you know if you are going to like something for the next 10 or more years? I purchased our current bed about 8 years ago (before Steve). Steve says he thinks it is still pretty comfy. I wake up every morning in horrible back pain. It got so bad right before I left for Florida I ended up at the chiropractor twice a day for a week. She suggested a new bed may be in order. Her recommendation was the Number Bed. The decision was made while I was away and woke up totally pain free after sleeping in the wonderful bed at the timeshare.



So off to the bed store Steve and I went on Saturday. We spent about 3 hours laying on different mattresses. I felt like Goldilocks in the 3 bears. The cool thing is that "Sleep America" has this new computer where they put all your particulars in and then you lay on a mattress and it tells you what the perfect firmness would be. Even with this new technology you still have to lay on different mattresses.



We finally agreed on one. It was delivered on Monday and it doesn't feel anything like it did in the store. The good news is I'm not in as much pain each morning as I was. I am going to give it another week or so and we will see.

Talking to a Therapist

I finally decided it was time to talk to someone professionally. I have now had 2 appointments with a therapist. He is a relationship/marriage therapist. When I first made the appointment, Steve agreed to go with me. Well, that has not happened as yet. Then yesterday when I arrived for my appointment I found out that he is NOT covered by my insurance. Man, do I hate insurance companies. I found him through the provider list...so WTF!!

We are getting to the bottom of my fears of abondament. I won't go into all the details but I had a lot of changes in my life when I was little and it is coming out. I want to trust...I really, really do and I am learning ways to do that. Most of the people in my life have eventually left me and I don't want my past to predict my future. I love Steve with all my heart and these insecurities are doing nothing positive for our relationship.

I will continue with the therapy, with or without Steve (and/or insurance coverage).

It Has Been A While

And I still don't know what to write. I guess I have been stuck in this vortex and can't seem to move forward. Don't get me wrong, I have done lots of things, like spending a week in Florida with my girlfriend from Ohio and her 90 year old mother. That was relaxing and fun. Here are a couple pictures:

I have been home for 3 days now and cannot seem to get it together to get things done. I attempted to do laundry yesterday, only to have to call a repairman for my washer. I could have spit nails. My washer is less than a year old. Then the repairman sent me realing...he kept saying "Oh this is bad". "If it is what I think it is it will be cheaper to buy a new washer". This is a new washer!! Turns out it was a loose screw. A LOOSE SCREW!! I could have hit him. So today I get to try and get the laundry caught up.

I will try to do better at staying a bit more current here...not that I am sure than anyone really reads me...but I think it is good for me to write some things out here.

Thanks for coming by!!